New Light

The last few months have found me on the next phase of my life. I move out of a very bad rebound relationship into a path of self discovery. The anxiety has become incredibly much more managageable with some simple excersises and the release of stress. I am a full time student and at times I wonder if this is what I should be doing. I hear a common statement of "well I have a degree but I am working a normal job" is this my fate? Who knows. My time for healing and living and growing is now. I took a class on something called EFT, an amazing way of releasing emotions, easily and quickly. I have found with my anxiety that I need to confront this beast head on, acknowledgeing how I feel instead of ignoring it and sleeping. My dissasociation is decreasing as I get more rest and my stress level goes down. My support has grown immensly since last year and I have a much larger array of friends now and I have come to the conclusion that is all I need.

I have no desire for a relationship and for the first time in my life I am happy living alone, just me and Milo. My roomate moved out and is living happily with her "soulmate". She no longer wakes me at 2 am in a drunken stupor. Things over all are going well enough and I am hoping to stay on this path for a while until I have discovered my authentic self. Digging through the layers of me, I am finding all sorts of interesting information I had no idea about, I am excited to see where this path goes, and I have figured out the key to living alone is to not think about the fact that you are alone, just living your life is the first step.